First conversation, part one

“Dreams are not real. They are only memories of what we have been doing during the past few days before the dream.”
“You tell me that again, but how can you explain I have seen things that have become as a deja vu in my real life? I know that I have wild imagination… but this is going crazy.”
“Do you know what could ease this pain, I’m starting to see stars…”
“There’s nothing that I can do. Only hope that it will hapen quick.”
He looked at her as she started to gather the dishes again, she was avoiding him, he could sense it.
“Your avoiding me, is it because you believe I will soon be a demon?”
“Not all demons are bad, it’s just the believe of humen. They have needed a word to diskripe bad people, not to diskripe the being itself.”
“But to you I am a demon, a bad demon, am I right?”
Neko didin’t answer at first. “Why do you think of that?”
“Because you keep avoiding me.”
“I haven’t resieved any calls or other tries to contact me either. I do know when I‘m not wanted.”
That made him quiet. He looked at her for a while and he almost forgot the pain in his shoulders.
“So… You don’t want to admit you missed me. Even a little… Being honest would lighten the burden?”
Neko said nothing, she only continued to clean the place.
“I’m getting tired of this…”
“You forgot to answer my question.”
“What question?” He rose up.
“I knew you forgot it. It has been a long time since I asked it and I did give you three years to answer to it. I knew you forgot it.”
He was guite stunned. Then he tries to remember that one question, but he didin’t remember any moment related to it. He had been thinking about the a lot so how could he have remembered one question that had been asked who knows when?
“Would you ask that question again?”
“There’s no need for it, it was at the time, there - there is no mind asking it again.”
“It must of been something serious because you gave me three years to think about it!”
“But those years went by already!” She turned, she didin’t look sad nor angry, she even smiled. “I wanted that answer. I waited to three years to have it. But when the school ended and we put those white hats on our heads and then we started to work and all that stuff, I gave up. It took me a lot to ask that at the time, I don’t have the strength and will to ask it again - not now.”
Kristianel didin’t know what to say, he had not thought that it would become like this.
“What I have learned, that I really can‘t trust anyone, that I should be alone, because I can‘t smile! I want to be with people but I don‘t want to be with them if I can‘t enjoy being with them. I don’t want that they would end smiling because I don‘t smile at all.”
“But you are smiling, you smiled and laught while we were eating!”
“I know… But I don’t know when I will start to be sad again. When I’m in my own thoughts and I look sad and then when I finally realize it I can’t smile because I’m so sad.”

~End of chapter nine~